I’m Lazy, lets get that out in the open. I am mother-fucking laaaazzzzzyyyy.

I’m a programmer at heart, and a designer by nature. Those two things get me in a mess. To put the cherry on the ice cream, I’ve been promoted, and I now work at home, for more pay. considerably more. (as of Feb 08). Thats the K.O. Punch for my lifestyle. i wake up late, i go to bed late, and i have more money to spend on, you named it… beer.

Well, i also recently turned 24. last year, i realized that i wasn’t the invincible 23yr old i thought i was. I have lost my abs, my metabolism has slowed to a near stop, and my body is in a state of hibernation kinda. i eat very little and still gain weight. this is not good. this is not good at all. I want to look good, i want to be fit, and i want to be healthy. I got a bowflex machine from a family friend last year, and ive used it.. 6 times? maybe 5.. yeah, i suck at this. i purchased running shoes about a month and a half ago. ive been jogging in them once?

my lifestyle makes me very sedentary. i start writing code, and i fall into the euphoric state of bliss where nothing else matters and im writing a firey trail of a program. i even forget to eat, drink, walk the dogs, and sometimes even live. yes, i know you’ve probably been there too. iTunes is blasting and the phone is ringing, but you hear nothing and see nothing. only the code on your screen and that damn little bug that you cant find. this is what is digging my grave. the beer and wings are the nails in my coffin.

I’ve recently found yahoo live. to say the least, its a nightly parade of /b/ to find the tits. i am proud to say that i don’t partake in that, but i still find it entertaining. well, a couple nights ago i found a fairly interesting person who really just goes about life at home on camera. they play drums, guitar, talk.. and best of all exercise. this has motivated me. for the past few nights, we both work out, in front of the world on live cam. im actually proud of myself. i hope i can keep this going long enough to see a difference physically. without finding this person, i dont think i would have built up the motivation to do it on my own. as much as i hate going to a gym and working out in front of people, this doesnt bother me. i still have my indulgences, like cookies and frozen snickers, but im working out nightly. which is more than i ever have in my life.. short of when i used to surf.

I am making new goals for myself. I want things, and I need things. I feel like I might finally be on the way to success. Motivation is the first step, and without someone there to lean on, who knows how long i would have gone without taking that first step. My next step is to be motivated to get certain projects done.. *ahem* Bill…

I hope that if you are in the same rut, you find what motivates you, whether it be music, friends, family, or life in general. There are things out there to jumpstart you. Just don’t spend too much time searching for it. Sometimes you just have to get up and go.

I am on the path to fixing my financial mistakes in the past.
I am on the path for improving my health, which will be an all around benefit to my life,
and I am on the path with Kelly to a future.