well. i think ive finally mentally succombed to the fact that i am not an invincible 23yrd old. ive gained weight. im 205, i should be 170. i have high cholesterol, and my doc says that i need to lower it, or risk at heart attack at 24. my asthma has been acting up since ive gained wieght. and my energy has dropped. my metabolism is too slow, and i can/have been living off of one meal a day, maybe 2.

in other words, laziness is kicking my ass.

yesterday marked 4 years from the end. ill be 24 in april, and i want to be healthy and happy. so, today marked a new beginning. i just have to keep myself up on it. i actually sat down and used the bowflex, and i jogged with bernie. this is the first time i have actually exercised in years. i just need to convert the same drive that i have to get through bad times into a drive to succeed for a healthy future. my current habits wont keep me alive to annoy everyone forever, so i need to change.