dude, seriously, the restraunts here need silvernell as a kitchen manager.

i got an awesome burger at avocado kitchen the other day, i was all hyped up. a cool rest. a great burger, good prices.. etx..

today, i get a burger.. its BURNT TO A FUCKING CHAR.

hellooooo, cook, turn your fucking grill down. a med burger is supposed to be juicy, not suck the moisture out of me. i have to drink just to balance out the lack of goodness!

it tasts like im sucking on a piece of charcoal!

ARRHHH… why cant there be a good rest on beach street?

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1/8/07

found one: My Cousin Vinney’s … will write more later, I PROMISE

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so, i do believe I’ve figured out the secret of life. yes I know, I seem a bit cocky, but aren’t i always?

look. if we gain wisdom by living and experiencing… then, by the end of our lives we have learned all that there is to learn *hopefully* thats why, its generally accepted that, when we die, we will understand the meaning of life. because, i assume, at that point, we will understand all of the experiences we have had in our lives.

so, with this in mind, if i sit and wait for life to go by.. and i dont go out and experience it.. then, will i have the choice to re-live my mortal life again? maybe this is where re-incarnation comes into play. IF there is an ultimate ruler, who says i havent learned everything yet, then i should be given another chance to go out and learn. but, did i piss away my first chance? should i be given a second? does it really matter?

people who die when they are 3 minutes old, and people who are killed when they are 20, and people who live to be ripe and 92… they have obviously difference in the amout of time they have to learn things. but what if… they baby who lived 3 minutes… experienced everything else in previous lives, and he/she only need one last experience to be done with “life”

what if the same was true for the 20 yr old.

maybe. each of us is in a cycle. we cant leave the loop until we have endured and lived every point on that path. only then can we leave the cycle and go to this so-called “heaven”

but if that were true, then.. by definition, a circle is in infinite loop and life would be an infinite loop. because a point is a void in space, though it truly exists. a circle has no end, thus.. life has no end.

what if “life” were linear. then eventually, we get to the end of the rope.. then what? we are judged? by who? and whats next? life cannot be linear. because being linear would enter a variable that life cannot define.

so, circular life cycle. we die, we re-incarnate somewhere else in the loop, and circle it once more. gaining more and more points. we die again, we enter again. over and over again. changes we make in each life would create a new point, a difference persay, in the loop. so, the person behind us would experience the fluctuation. so their life around this time is different. we gain what the previous left behind. that would explain the theaory that time repeats itself fairly well. and it enters in no ultimate judgment or god.

thus eliminating an end. a ruler, which we couldn’t explain in the first place.

wait. going by what is known… anything in a loop must be revolving around a center object. the universe, the galaxies, the stars, atoms, electrons, theres a center to everything known. a nucleus.

so. if life has a nucleus. lets say its the almighty knowledge base. theres our god. the storage of all knowledge and wisdom. the power to create, the power to destroy. knowledge, not a human like figure with limbs and no gender. its knowledge itself.

we circle though these lives to gain every piece of knowledge on the way. once we have gained all that there is, we join the knowledge base. the nucleus. “heaven”

and if we failed. we killed ourselves. we killed others, we “sinned:” then we upset someone elses track on the path to knowledge. the organism expelled us from the path. thus, “hell”

purgatory would be where we keep circling, but gain nothing. we don’t alter our path or gain something new. we just keep going. keep circling.

heaven is entering the knowledge base, which is god. but if we disrupt someone else’s path, we are expelled, to hell.. which is off the path of life.

as for my theory of planar mental states.. those would be variation in the degree of our orbit. think of all existence. this heaven/god/nucleus, and us, as electrons revolving around like a infinitely large, and infinitely small atom.

in 3 dimensions, each proton/neutron/and electron has an orbit. but they’re not all at 0 degrees, there are variations in this axis. so, with an infinite amount of points on a circle. in 3 dimensions, we have a sphere, with infinite degrees of axis/orbit. we also have the space in between our orbit and the center. thus, with every life in this “existence” we have a solid sphere, with a center of gravity.. god.

were all trying to get closer to this god, but we cant, until we’ve experienced everything on our path. if we gain something we move a fraction closer. if we disrupt, we move a fraction farther away. eventually we either join the nucleus, or we are expelled from the gravitational pull. if we do nothing we go no where. purgatory.

thus. we have a universe. god/nucleus/knowledge base is the center from which life began.

where does time fall into play. time is the speed in which we are orbiting the center. thus time travel is impossible. because we cannot experience which that has not been created. you cant breathe air that isn’t there, not can you walk on ground that doesn’t exist. if we went forward in time, we would disrupt the life in front of us. if we went back in time, we would only be able to experience the same thing again. we can only alter the present.

ghosts. ghosts are other lives crossing our line. or souls stuck in purgatory, that are following our exact path. we are in the same spot at the same time. but we cant be physically. so, which soul has priority of life in the time given. soul A being the ghost, soul B being me. i walk down a hall and see a ghost. that is a souls crossing my path of life. they have died and are either getting closer to the center or getting farther from the center.

what if two lives crash in orbit. it has to happen. orbit a, on axis 300, crashes into orbit b on axis 200. they will crash twice in a life time. thats the point at which another soul enters or leaves the path. the collision enters a new life .. orbit c on path 250. exactly half the distance between axis 200 and 300.

the child of live a and b. but, then we could only have one child by that law. BUT..

we are sinning and repenting.  thus altering our radius from the center. i sin. she sins. we crash. life. i sin again, she repents, we crash again at another point. thus, another life. this erases the possibility of two crash, entrance and exit. this only allows for entrance. we can only exit, if we enter the center.

this is making my head hurt.  but i think im getting somewhere.

soul mates.. exist or not exist?  well, if i can explain ghosts, ill give this a shot.
im thinking not exist.. because, we each sin and repent differently and gain knowledge differently. but how can two lives be so similar, sometimes mirrors?  because they are mirrors! they’re 180 degrees apart! on the same orbit. no. there is infinite orbit. or is there 360? there is 360 degrees in a circle. so, 360 orbits, thus we have our sphere. no. infinite. of course! this isn’t a sphere! is an infinite figure 8. heaven. hell. god the devil. life, death. the balance. our soul mate is 180 degrees out of phase, not orbit. were not on the same path, just on the mirrored path.  god/knowledge base/.the nucleus, is one of 2..  it is the sum of all knowledge. the opposite, is the void of all knowledge. this creates another crash point. the closer we are to knowledge..GOD, the farther we are from void.. the devil.. hell. and vice versa.
but what happens at this crash point….

life is created when two orbits of life crash. and life ends when we enter the nucleus.. either “god” or the “devil” soul mates exist by being 180 degrees out of phase, and ghosts exist by other souls crossing our path.

with all variable taken in. number of orbits, degrees of each orbit, and speed at which they are traveling. this crash point, doesn’t exist. its virtually impossible to crash here. but, if 2 souls did crash at this the midway between heaven and hell.these two would leave their existing path and be dissolved… the 2 souls would void each other out. and create a singular new life with the sum of the two souls knowledge. if the sum is greater than 100f all knowledge, they are on a path as one to heaven.. if they are less, they continue as one life.. thus giving us the feeling of living a prior life… dejavu…

so to sum this up…

GOD is the nucleus A. the sum of all knowledge. the end of a  of a circular AND linear life. this nucleus, is also our so-called “heaven”.. “utopia”

the DEVIL is hell. is void. is the negate of all the is known. the loss of all knowledge.

our soul is our life on an orbit around these two nuclei. if we gain knowledge, we get closer to nucleus A. if we disrupt another life by killing or hindering.. we get close to the void of life.

we are spawned from either a collision between the two nuclei, which is caused by a crash of two lives. OR we are created for the collision of two lives in orbit. we can collide with another by being in the exact same point of time.

time is defined by the speed at which we are orbiting.

soul mates are our mirror. 180 degrees out of phase from our current life.

ghosts are lives crossing our own. by either getting closer to GOD or the Devil.

life ends when we have gained all that can be known. or we have sinned so many times that the void (devil) has assimilated us.

haha, a black hole!

dejavu exists because we are experience something we already have experienced in a prior life cycle.

there is an infinite amount of life, and an infinite amount of knowledge because, there is an infinite amount of degrees to a circle. and point on a circle.

heh.. i think i just explained god, heaven and hell, soul mates, ghosts, the secret of live, after life, and dejavu…

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